church: (noun), the whole body of Christian believers; Christendom; origin: before 900

A few weeks ago, I went to Dallas. Home of big hair, big steaks, cattle with big horns, and also a big gathering of Presbyterians trying to sustain and nurture the church. People trying to help breathe new life into the church; similar to the way that God breathes the breath of life (ruah) into the lungs of the first human in the second creation story in Genesis.

 

There were breaths, all right, Some were breaths of relief in seeing so many come together to work toward a common goal of helping the church thrive. Some were breaths of gasping for air when the traditional blue-book hymns were taken and sung by a performer along with the conference attendees and done with new tunes with lots of harmonizing and riffs. Some were breaths of delight at the new ways to worship. Some were breaths of excitement when we ran into old friends from 2005 that we never imagined of seeing. Some were bated breaths while listening to the speakers. Some were sighs of relief at realizing that seminary students (meaning the next generation of the church leaders), can actually worship and do it well.

I went to the NEXT Church conference, hosted by the congregation of the First Presbyterian Church of Dallas. The hardest part about this conference is trying to figure out just what the hell you say about it, exactly. This is the second conference, the first being in Indianapolis last year.

To begin with, there were almost 600, mainly white Presbyterians in a sanctuary together. I say mainly because last year I could have counted the number of participants who were not white on one hand.Frank Yamada, president of McCormick Seminary talks alot about the year 2040. 2040 is the estimated year that there will no longer be a majority of any one type of people in the United States. This is by race, because let’s be honest, with the way things are going, the rich will still heavily under weigh those who are below the poverty line. This year at NEXT, there was a conscious effort to remember that not all Presbyterians are old, white, male, and heterosexual. Granted, they had their token people of color there, but still, thank you for listening to people when they were bothered by the fact that all you had was a sea of white last year.

Second, the conference worship was interesting. Part of the problem with the PCUSA today, is that no one wants to hand over control. Basically, no one is retiring. There was a recent article posted to Facebook about current pastors asking people to stop becoming pastors, and I have to wonder, does someone feel threatened? Are we realizing that things have to change? Are we worried about job security? Are we worried that the next generation of the church is going to screw it up royally? Are we worried that all the things we worked so hard for will be thrown out the window by those new comers who don’t appreciate it? Yes to all of those and more. But the fact is, that someone passed down the church to the generation of pastors before us, and now it’s time to pay it forward. We’re not saying “get lost.” In fact, were saying the opposite. We’re saying, “hey, what did you do and how can I do it and make it applicable to my generation like you did for yours?”

I say all this because the opening worship was a bit of a shit-show. (Yes. I swore. And I’m probably sure that Jesus did too at some point.) The point is, that taking old hymns that people already know and love and adding new tunes, a wailing musician who is really putting on a show for people, and a guitar is not going to make worship somehow more special, it’s going to be uncomfortable, annoying, and a bit insulting to those young people like me, who you are trying to “reach out” to. Really?

Third, the conference has defined its goals a little better but its still sort of muddy waters. Which I actually find good and refreshing. People are still finding their way through this and they are also claiming their own identities of what they want the Next Church to become.

Trying to find your place in the world as the church and as the body of Christ is hard, but we keep on doing it. We keep on working and growing and trying to listen for the spirit as much as possible; and maybe, just maybe, we will get it right one of these days.

Here’s to hoping that we’ll figure out what it will mean to become the next church.

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Listen: (verb), origin before 950; middle english; also see: hear

This week, I find myself in the midst of many things. First, I’m in my second, count it, second week of Shake it Up Cafe Vacation Bible School. The first one was with Rehoboth Presbyterian Church and now I find myself waking up at 6:30am to drive to Oglethorpe Presbyterian. Second, I’m in the midst of finishing my paperwork for candidacy with the Greater Atlanta Presbytery. Third, I’m attempting to get ready to go back to McCormick for my final year of seminary and also get ready to help teach and be taught. Last, I’m attempting to answer the question that’s on form 5a of the candidate paperwork: In what church occupation are you interested in at this time?

My answer: something easy to digest and what you want to hear, whatever that might be.

The good Christian girl answer: wherever God leads me.

Reality’s answer: a job that pays the bills and doesn’t put me living in the boondocks of America for the next 10 years alone with my two dogs and 6 birds and a few cats thrown in there. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe that God will lead me there, in fact, I know it. The the question is: how will I listen?

I think about listening and I am reminded that everyone listens everything differently. This comes from people’s background, moods, etc. When someone talks about certain things I don’t want to listen, then I shut it out, I might get upset about it if it’s not to my liking or I might buy right into whatever the person is selling because I like it; there are so many possibilities for how we decide to listen! So while I’m writing my statements to the questions for the presbytery, I have to wonder: how people will be listening?

Every word has to be perfectly arranged in place and meticulously thought out about why it’s used and what’s it doing there. Take my faith statement. Honestly, I make a bold claim that humans have freedom to make decisions apart from God. Some might say that this contradicts the statement right before it where I claim that God is all-powerful; but it doesn’t. And unless you’re having a campfire in my head, then it probably is pretty contradictory. But I promise you, it’s not!

Let me explain and maybe you can listen to what I’m saying.

First, God is all-powerful. No, God won’t create a rock so large that God’s can’t carry it or move it. God isn’t that stupid and also it’s not possible, because God is God. Second, I do think God has plans for what God wants us to do, but we have to decide as to whether or not we’re going to do it. Take the typical minister’s struggle. It happens before you actually accept the call to go and do this thing called ministry for real. We all make excuses as to why we should do other things, and you fight it, and it’s hard to fight, and eventually you give in and it gets easier (not in every way). God’s call in your life might be hard to accept whatever you are called to do (priesthood of all believers, just google it), but once you’ve given in to it, things get a bit easier in some ways (again, not in every way). But here’s the point: if you are adamant that you aren’t going to answer that call and do something else, then you’re just not going to and God will work in other ways through you.

Why? Not because you outsmarted God or because you’re big enough to resist God, but because God is a bit smarter than you or I and will always win out in whatever situation you find yourself in. Whoever said that we make our own destiny, was right, but didn’t count on the fact that God outsmarts us. Every time. We can make our own destiny in this life, but God can do with us what God wants while we’re making that destiny.

So, all of that being said, we have some free agency in this material world of ours. Now, let’s get on to the topic of evil. People do acts of evil. I suppose that your God nay-sayer could say that if God were all-powerful, then God could simply not allow those evil acts to happen; but that’s not how it works. In case you didn’t know, there are things that God knows that we don’t. God isn’t allowing those evil acts. We’re making the conscious decisions to do them and each time we do, we pull ourselves away from God. This isn’t just a “God-should-do-all-the-work-in-my-life” kind of deal here. It’s a two-way street. We’re called to live a life in communion with God, our neighbors, nature and all of God’s creation, which is everything. We’ve done a crappy job so far and we’re not getting better at it (That’s just my own personal opinion; you might think that the way we treat each other and our earth is acceptable, but I don’t and it’s my blog, so there.)

Each time we do an act of evil (and when I say acts of evil, I mean lots of things; basically, anything that ain’t right), we separate ourselves from God; and just because you might think you are close to God, you might want to really think about that means. You can be close to God and still pull yourself away from God. I know plenty of people who are close to God but in fact they turn their noses up at others who don’t dress as well as them or to those who are simply different than them. Yes folks, these are acts of evil. When I think of people who are Christians, who would put me down for reasons I deem ridiculous, then I don’t want to like them. In fact, I want to hate them. That’s an act of evil. I’m capable of it and so are you. Call me Jean Calvin, but we’re not all made of roses and cotton candy. We’re jerks a lot of the time. God didn’t create jerks. God created things that were good because God called all that God created as good. So, we’re good; but we’re also capable of being jerks.

What’s really important is that we know we’re jerks and that we are capable of evil and of that ever salt-rubbing-in-the-wound word, sin. We are capable of these things and when we act on them, we’re not only jerks, but we’re jerks that are pulling ourselves away from God. I think it upsets God when we don’t welcome our neighbors (check your Sodom and Gomorrah, the ultimate story about hospitality, not homosexuality), when we turn away those in need (the poor, sick, etc.), when we enable others to keep living in their own sorrows without attempting to empower them to take charge and help themselves (Jesus meets the leper who doesn’t take the initiative to get himself into the pool and let’s everyone else go first so he’s stuck living in his life as a leper when he should probably be a little more pro-active; it’s in the synoptic gospels, read it). I say I think because I cannot say for a cold, hard fact what on earth God is thinking, but I think I have a good idea from the God I know…

So, did you hear what I said? How did you listen?

In the end, what isn’t important is how people are listening; what’s really important is that I say it at all and pray to God that someone is listening. The people of the Presbytery of Greater Atlanta won’t read this, unless perhaps you are Rix or Jill; but those people in the presbytery will be in a room with me when October rolls around. And I can only hope that they decide to listen and that I am able to say it to the best of my ability without boring people too much.

Maybe this is what I should bring to my meetings.

Now that I’m done with this form of procrastination for my paperwork, I’m going to go for the ultimate form of procrastination: sleep.

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This works better if I write…

How insane is this? I write a blog for my job, and I can’t even keep up with my own on here? Maybe it’s like a famous chef or something; they are fabulous in the kitchen of their four0star Michelin restaurant, but get them at home and they just want take-out. Now, I’m not claiming to have an award winning blog for McCormick, but it’s pretty darn good if I do say so myself. But this one isn’t about McCormick; it’s about me. I know, selfish, right?

Wildlife at the Ranch!

First off, I was in Texas. Yep, you heard it right. I went down to the hill country of Texas. I spent most of May, all of June and a few days in July working for the Crosstrails Ministry at their site, Ebert Ranch. I worked as their Adventure Program Director. I did a lot of work; high ropes, chicken wrangling, nurses’ station, out-camp, cookouts, campfires, etc. It was fun, but sadly, not all things are meant to last. In a nutshell, I left the job. There were just too many other factors that fit in to the equation and I needed to take my leave.So in the end, I asked to be let out of my contract. The directors, Adam and Julie, were sad to see me leave but I think they understood. I was sad to leave an amazing staff, but sometimes you have to take care of yourself first. I have truly missed them.

The view from the deck.

Now, on to other pressing issues: ordination exams, CPE and candidacy. These were some of the things that drew me away from Texas early, but not all of them. First Ordination exams. Those happen in August, right at the end. What do they do? Well, simply put: the goal is to take them, pass them and never have to see them again. Done. Next, we have CPE. Applications finished and in the mail, now, we just have to wait. Lastly, candidacy. This is the part where I write, write, write. And write some more. I’ll post my answers to the soul probing questions as they become available.

Okay friends, that’s all you get right now. One more year of seminary and then into the real world, so let’s see how this goes!

Peace~Shelley D.

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